Punk Rock Life

5am, train whistles, you and Johnny Cash, I can’t tell you how much I miss you.

Feb
06

At 5 am I wake up like I do every single day and do my thing and get back into bed. Every thought running through my sleepy head is about you. I feel on the verge of tears almost all the time now. It’s so quiet. Suddenly in the distance I hear the train whistling and rolling. I love that sound. I want to tell you and I want to hear some Johnny Cash. Then I find this and it’s about a divine love. I love you and you love me. ❤💀❤#bmf4ever @14:11 thank you baby for hearing my screams. You are with me when I need you in our burning ring of Fire. I am so grateful to have known this kind of love even though it crushes me with your absence. #57 I understand my man. 💔

The spirit of June Carter overshadows me tonight. With the love she had for me and the love I have for her, we connect somewhere between here and heaven…I thank God for June Carter and I love her with all my heart.

7th July 2003 at the Carter Ranch

5757575757575757

Jan
25

On day 641 a friend found this little untouched vignette you left behind in the little house you built. She did not know you but she knew not to disturb it. A little BMF shrine. Thank you for the jolt baby. #earl #57 #bmf4ever #fuckcancer ❤💀❤ You are all over me baby! 💋❤💔💋💀💋❤💔 (Earl is his Dad)

8. receiving a symbolic message, sign, coincidence or synchronicity

Your deceased loved ones are often very eager to let you know they are part of your life and with you when you least expect it. While many people can feel their deceased loved ones watching over them, sometimes, it’s hard to be that perceptive, or to be that sure that what we felt was really what we thought it was. So, those in Spirit will provide us with signs that we cannot ignore.

Once you receive this type of sign, time and time again, you will know this is a message from the Other Side – and don’t let anyone else tell you otherwise! The signs can and will come to you in a variety of ways, and the key is keep your eye open for synchronicities and anything out of the ordinary.

Wondering where and what to look for?

  • Small coins and feathers are common and fun signs from our loved ones in Spirit!
    Small Objects: Feathers, Coins, and Stones.
    Spirit likes to place things in our path that were significant to them (or significant to us), over and over again. My father collected stones, and will often place new stones in the path of myself, my mother, and my sister when he visits. However, others see feathers, coins, and other small objects usually in their path.
  • Animals: Spirits use energy to be with us, and often, it is through the energy of animal world – such as a butterfly, bird, ladybug, dragonfly, or other creature – for a very short amount of time. If an animal does something usual – like land in front of or on you, stare at you through a window, or call in your path, this could be a sign. A common sign from those of the Other Side, are usually animals that are colorful (the more colorful something is – the more noticeable it is to you). Keep an eye out for bluebirds, jays, and cardinals.
  • Flowers: Spirits can send us flowers in unexpected ways. If you receive a flower sign, it could be in the form of an unexpected bouquet or gift, or a flower that is blooming out of season.
  • People: Your loved ones on the Other Side can and will use people to give you messages, and generally, the person delivering the message is not aware of it. Listen to those around you, the words they are speaking may be a direct message from the Spirit world to you! Also, those in Spirit may send meaningful people in your direction such as teachers, life partners, and new best friends.

Yes, I always said my mom sent Jeff to get me past her death.

………..more signs.

BMF LOVED MISS CHICKY. Why did you have to go baby?

Aug
20

 

This song “The Man Comes Around” was written entirely by Johnny Cash not long before his death. It was one of Jeff’s most favorite songs and he had asked The Unsatisfied to cover it for his birthday party in 2010. They did a beautiful job.

You can run on for a long time but sooner or later God’s Gonna Cut You Down.

5☠️❤️7

A Saturday at the Punk Rock House

Aug
19

Tweaking the Unsatisfied and watching for potential riots in Bawston, wishing they wouldn’t fuck up the landscape and statuary, wondering what Trump is up to, about to fix some hamburger soup, sitting at a level 9.73 and just started watching “Fight Club” with a side of Big Brother 19(which stinks now Cody is gone).

And this:

Punk Rock Life without BMF!

Aug
12

All I want to do is sleep. I just fall asleep for no reason. My sense of belonging is flat line.

If I should die tonight and the reason remains unknown, tell not the whole world, but the one I love that I died of a broken heart, not because he loved me too little but because I loved him too much. ~unknown~

Thanks Natasha Terry – this helps! Not bi-polar but the pain from this broken heart feels the same. I just have to be patient and take this one day at a time. Hang on. The hole is deep!

“Fell in a Hole” by The Unsatisfied, performed at BMF Epic Birthday Party, August 2010

That just about says it all Metallica. BMF and MIss Chicky shall live forever.

Aug
08

If you want to live forever…first you must die.

NOW THAT WE’RE DEAD
Written by Hetfield/Ulrich

When darkness falls
May it be
That we should see the light

When reaper calls
May it be
That we walk straight and right

When doubt returns
May it be
That faith shall permeate our scars

When we’re seduced
Then may it be
That we not deviate our cause

All sinners, a future
All saints, a past
Beginning, the ending
Return to ash

Now that we’re dead, my dear
We can be together
Now that we’re dead, my dear
We can live forever

When all is pain
May it be
It’s all we’ve ever known

When flame consumes
May it be
It warms our dying bones

When loss has won
May it be
It’s you I’m madly fighting for

When Kingdom comes
May it be
We walk right through that open door

All sinners, a future
All saints, a past
Beginning, the ending
Return to ash

Now that we’re dead, my dear
We can be together
Now that we’re dead, my dear
We can live forever

All sinners, a future
All saints, a past
Beginning, the ending
Return to ash

Now that we’re dead, my dear
We can be together
Now that we’re dead, my dear
We can live, we can live forever

Return to ashes, shed this skin
Beyond the black, we rise again
We shall live forever

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Baby I miss you. My head feels tight all the time now.

Jul
23
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I’m Crying. Punk Rock Life without BMF.

Jul
18
I’m crying for the mother who lost her only son, I’m crying for the father who lost his baby child, I’m crying for the sister who lost her loving man, I’m crying for the brother who couldn’t see the light, I’m crying, I’m crying, I’m crying. ~Lucinda
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Perfectenschlag Flashback

Jul
08

Dallas Buyers Club

Jul
08

Watching this today versus 2013 is mind boggling. Fuck fuck fuck pancreatic cancer.

  • Sorry lady, I prefer to die with my boots on.
  • Fuck you!
  • You don’t give AZT to a person with a broken immune system. It’s toxic.

You don’t give chemotherapy to a man with a broken immune system and tell him he’s going to die anyway. You poisoned him. Fucking doctors. Fuck fuck fuck chemotherapy.

Day 2557. Life is strange.

Fuck fuck fuck cigarettes and cocaine.